As Above so Below: To Be or Not to Be!

A beached mermaid, that's what I have been since I gave up my tail....
And it seems that along with the scaly part of my body, part of my soul has gone too..... A voluntary decision, yes, but why does it feel like I have sold my soul to devil, who took it without a second thought!
I exchanged my flawless, flexible shiny tail to a pair of heavy tired legs that at this point are dragging
the rest of my body to dry lands....
In this part of the world, the temperature has risen and it seems that it makes people a little bit crazy....
shoes come off, clothes come off, body parts become suddenly visible and hormones hit the roof!
In my eyes, the eternal blue is mirrored and it comes alive when the scent of the waters hits my nostrils....
I sit on the dock and wait... I wait for Achilles to come, as he is the only one at this time who knows
how to get me back in the water...sometimes I am not sure who needs this the most; Achilles or I?
As I see a figure approaching, I recognize his movements, and I think to myself that this brisk, dance-like pace of his must be similar to his war techniques... I have a serious palpitation increase... And something
very annoying is stuck in my throat. All of a sudden I want to cough so hard, so hard that I will spit
my heart out.... I remember reading the words of another mermaid who felt the exact same way....
His embrace, his kiss and his laughter lift my spirits and change my mood.
"Shall we go for a swim?"
He isn't really asking, he is telling me and I love the fact that I am letting him control me. We stand face to face at the end of the dock. Not a single word voiced, we stare in each others eyes slowly undressing one another..... It’s a ritual, a preparation for what is to follow. I stand naked at the end of the dock and even though it feels awkward,  I let him move two steps backwards as I feel he wants to have a good look at
my nakedness.... His eyes carefully examine every inch of my body paying particular attention to my newly acquired pair of legs.
It is at that moment that I realize that it doesn't really matter. Whether a scaly shiny tail or a sculptured
pair of legs, it doesn't make a difference! It is the journey that the two of us will take. That's what it is,
that's what matters!
Those few seconds before we jump into the beautiful night waters last for an eternity, and as the
decreasing moon illuminates my water world, it also illuminates my heart, the same heart that I was
ready to spit out a while earlier...
All these years I had been swimming around a chalice that I thought was full of love, begging for some
drops to quench my everlasting thirst...
What I hadn't realized was that I am an ocean of pure, unconditional love, pouring out into all kinds of chalices! I can fill chalices with mythical treasures, gold and emeralds and diamonds and rubies...
my sources everlasting, never-ending....
Achilles puts his hand in mine, tangles our fingers, smiles at me and says:
"Shall we?"
I smile back, close my eyes and do a free fall! Without worrying what will happen I tell myself:
"You are an endless ocean of love, pure and unconditional...pour it freely around you and you shall
receive it in abundance...no chalices, no boundaries, no limits...."
Once more Achilles and I swam to the river Styx... Once more I gave him my world and he gave me moments of immortality, singing "the wildest moments"!

 I wish some nights lasted forever!!!!!!!!

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