Tuesday, March 29, 2016

As above so below- A mortal death is not an option

It has been exactly two years since I gave up my tail and decided to live as a two-legged human . 
What a terrible mistake! 
And even though the past two years have given me memories and experiences I had always been dreaming of, it seems that life on the dry lands is so out of balance. Living in the water had always kept my emotions on a kind of a flat line! Whenever the waters felt troubled, I would slap the waves with my tail and swim across the ocean to find the tranquility my heart desired.
Here, the lack of water, the absence of balance, has kept me on an emotional roller coaster. And right this moment, I feel the urge to jump! 
This morning at dawn I walked to the dock! It was foggy and the wind from the dessert had infused the atmosphere with golden dust. At the sight of what I used to call home, my legs went weak and tears started rolling down my cheeks. You see, when you live in the ocean, there is no crying, no trembling! You just wiggle your tail and cut through the salty water! In the ocean, there is balance....
At the edge of the dock I felt dizzy, disoriented and heavy, extremely heavy. I didn't even think twice and made the move. One step. That's all it took. It has been two years since I have been on dry land. 
Enough! 
I sank to the bottom and realized that my clothes and shoes were still on, that's how accustomed to this earthly life I had become. I felt heavy, and it seemed that my lungs were not functioning in the water. I felt like I was choking and my legs had transformed into two huge rocks stuck at the bottom of the sea. 
This was my punishment for abandoning my world. To die there as what I have always feared. And at the peak of that fear, came realization. Maybe a mortal death was what I needed! Maybe that was the only way to erase the dryness of the past two years! Maybe that was the way home. 
I looked up through the water and in the darkness of this foggy dawn I saw a figure standing at the end of the dock. It was a familiar figure. Someone who knew me well and knew where to find me when I disappear. I saw a hand in the water trying to pull me out and for a split second I retracted. The hand went deeper but still could not reach me and before I knew it the figure took a war-like jump and disturbed the tranquility of my water. He swam to me with extreme ease; I had taught him well. He smiled at me, took my hand and pulled me to the surface. The air gushing in my lungs  burned my insides. I went numb and closed my eyes.

When I opened my eyes, I was lying wet on the wooden dock and there he was, kneeling next to me! 
Achilles! 

He seemed to be aware of my downfall and like always he was there to infuse me with his immortality! 
"Mortal death is not an option" he said with a smile on his face took me away. Together we traveled to other worlds, other dimensions....there where 3-D reality does not exist! Because in this reality, Achilles and I cannot coexist ! We are so different but at the same time exactly the same! Fearless and thirsty for adventure! 
Once more we swam together and once more I felt Achilles' immortality penetrate my every cell! 

We raised our glass looking in each other's eyes and toasted! "To immortality".......

Emilia
March 2015