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Quoting myself from earlier this week.....
"On
a hazy humid morning like today, my minds rolls.......to places I'd rather keep
hidden, locked, put away for almost forever......
Feelings, thoughts and sentiments I thought I had buried in a little jeweled
box along with some words on blue crispy paper, suddenly made their existence
acknowledged! I almost forgot..... I called that little box my own Pandora's
box.... carefully but lovingly put away never to be opened again. Not in this
lifetime! Dans une autre vie peut etre!
When face to face with reality, I understood that sometimes the contracts and
agreements we once made prior to this incarnation on the 3-D earth plane,
cannot be broken, and like an invisible hand, destiny guides us to the
fulfillment of our spiritual blueprint.......
I look at the contents of my little box in awe! And I whisper to myself.... So
Be It!"
Change is the only constant in our
lives…It’s the way people try not to change that’s unnatural:
The way we cling to what things were,
instead of letting them what they are,
The way we cling to old memories instead
of forming new ones,
Or the way we insist on believing
despite every scientific indication that anything in this life is permanent!
Change is constant! How we experience
change though, that’s up to us.
It can feel like death or it can feel
like a second chance in life; if we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with
it,
It can feel like pure adrenalin,
like at any moment we can have another
chance at life…
like at any moment we can be born all
over again!!!!
For better or worse
we become more than our biology. The risk of course, is that we can change too
much, to the point we don’t recognize ourselves.Finding the way back can be difficult.
There is no compass, no map…. We just have to close our eyes, take a step and
hope to God we get there…………
It’s very difficult
to block the mind form rolling deep into the past, into blissful as well as
terrifying moments in time that played a major role into forming one’s
personality! When alone, we tumble into the abyss of our own labyrinth….. We
are trapped, with little possibility of finding the way out and it is at that
point we come face to face with our demons….. Some of us will let the demons
take over; we become predictably unstable, selfish and let anger and jealousy
torment our every cell. Some of us though, prepare for impact! We fight the
demons with every means available until there’s nothing left. The length of
recovery is determined by the extend of the injuries, and it’s not always
successful, no matter how hard we work at it. Some of us might never fully
heal... we might have to adjust to a whole new way of living. Things may have
changed too radically to ever go back to what they were. You might not even
recognize yourself. It’s like you haven't recovered anything at all....you are
a whole new person...with a whole new life....
As we move along
the guided lines of our life's blueprint, oblivious to the dramatic changes that
occur during this journey, the biggest challenge of all, is taming one's ego!
Once we acknowledge that these changes probably serve a Divine purpose, we can
then accept that when we find the strength to release and move on, the void
that was once painfully crying to be filled, is nothing but an opportunity for
the gates of a secret garden we never knew actually existed, to appear in front
of us wide open!!!
I've come to the conclusion that whilst
everything happens for a reason..... people come and go only to serve a
specific purpose in our life! We make pacts, agreements..... we shake hands
over complicated blueprints that we, ourselves design, oblivious to the effects
they will actually have on us and the people around us... these blue prints are
there from the beginning of time and we are the only ones who can actually make
changes! So yes, right now I am GRATEFUL for what I had, what I have today and
what tomorrow will bring me 'cause whatever it is, I know that somewhere in
another dimension, I agreed to it, I planned it and I designed it exactly how I
want it to be! I am grateful for the people that walked out of my life 'cause
they've taught me valuable lessons and made me grow....I've learned that when
you love unconditionally, you let go.....and I'm also grateful to the new
people that walked into my life cause they brought this wind of change that
blew like a whirlwind and slapped me in the face, making me want to live it
all! For the first time in years, I'm shedding old rotten skin....... a painful
process but an exciting one nonetheless! The new skin is beautiful, shiny,
flawless...... and I am enjoying every minute of it! ♥
